About a month ago I joined a softball team. I've been asked to join the team for the last few years and every year I passed on the opportunity. I had no desire to be humiliated with my running skills, hitting and catching skills. This year I thought I'd push through the embarrassment to push myself to do something new. I have NEVER played organized softball in my life. I went to my first practice and thought this is no big deal. I watched the other ladies around me struggle to pick up the ball, and run after the ball. At first I was like, what's their problem? And then it was my turn and I found myself tipping over when reaching for that blasted ball. I quickly discovered that I am completely out of shape. My gut gets in the way of my ability to bend over and pick up the ball, my big old rear end prevents me from running as fast as I imagine myself running.
At first I was embarrassed. But wait a minute, I'm not the only one who was struggling out there (double fist pump to the chest to all my peeps in the same boat, I truly feel you!). My embarrassment quickly turned to anger. Anger at letting myself get this way. I have discovered some amazing things about myself and my relationship with God. But in the process I lost my body. I am angry. I am angry that my body can't do the things that I want it to do. I'm so angry it brings me to tears. Am I angry enough to do something about it?
YOU BET!!
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Please read some of my weight story's in my archives. I found NutriMirror at my lowest time in my life. I was so depressed and HATED ME! Ive never looked back and I am in control of food not food in control of me. Its your body, you can take over it!
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