Living Life Deliberately

The last few weeks I have felt myself slipping.  I had a great thing going studying my scriptures and gospel doctrine in the mornings before my kids got up.  Then I would get my kids up and read a few verses in the Book of Mormon with them.  Throughout the day I would listen to Conference talks.  I found that the t.v. wasn't on as much. I was also doing a really great job at being aware of my body and when it was truly hungry and full.  It all seems to be slipping away.  I wake up in the mornings feeling sick from the over processed food that I find myself gravitating toward.  All those things are disappearing. 

Then I realized that I was doing all those things deliberately.  I was desiring a certain outcome to my life so I was deliberately doing those things to aquire said outcome.  And you know, it was working.  If I want my life to change completely I have to live every life deliberately and with diligence. 

When did it all start slipping?  When I wanted to start making goals in my life.  I had written some down.  They were all awesome goals.  None of them had to do with losing weight and getting to a certain size or number.  But it felt all wrong.  I got scared and my bad habits crept back into my life. 

I also realize that if I am going to change that I am going to have to set some goals to help me change.  And I do want to lose weight.  I am not happy, as I mentioned in my last post, with my body and the way it is functioning.  I also realize that my insecurities are effecting my relationship with the husband.  Which makes me completely sad.

Nothing in my life is beyond change .  That brings me great hope.  I can deliberately change my diet to feel better on the inside, thus making me feel better on the outside.  I can deliberately go to bed early so I can arise early and read my scriptures.  Which will strengthen my spirit and bring me closer to God.  I can deliberately go on a walk every single day which will strengthen my body and give my self-confidence a boost. 

In short, I am going to once again start living my life deliberately.  I am grateful that I recognized what was going on before it was far too late.  It's never too late, but sometimes if you wait too long it's harder to get started again. 

My first step moving forward is to come to terms with goal setting.  I need to realize that good goal setting is healthy and a way to progress.