How did the first 4 days go of my no-sugar fast? I did awesome 2 out of the 4 days. I refuse to demand perfection out of myself. When I have demanded that of myself in the past I begin to hate the process, hate myself, and end up giving up all together. On Wednesday I went out with a new friend to a new place to eat and allowed myself to share a shake with her and our children. It was good, and I didn't have anything else for the rest of the day. Thursday my cousin and Aunt came over for a quilting day. That was a lot of fun. Although I succumbed to drinking a diet caffeine free soda, and my Aunt had a massive craving for a cake so we made one from a box mix an another diet soda. My Aunt made this amazing glaze to go on top and I allowed myself to try that as well. Goodness it was good. Again, I didn't have anything after it. I did recognize how crazy I was for it after just trying the first little bit. My body took a little quick intake of breath and asked itself, "What is this deliciousness and give me more!!" Sure fire sign of an addict.
I look at where I have come in just even a year and I am proud of my progress. The reason I am doing this 30 day fast is to prove to myself that I can go without sugar. That my desire for better health is greater then my desire to indulge in junk. Even though these last 4 days have not been "perfect" I still haven't bought candy when I am at the store. I don't have candy or cookies in my pantry to tempt and try me. I don't buy a soda every time I'm in the grocery store and I'm not hopping in the 'burb to run down to the nearest gas station to get my fix.
I am the first one to admit that I am some what of a follower. I love doing what others are doing and have a hard time not participating in the fun things. And for me, that involves food. That is a step that I know will come later. I can't jump all these hurdles at once. That is a sure fire way for me to fall flat and hard on my face.
The weekend is coming up and another challenge will be presented. I love the weekends and the treats that tend to come with them. But I have promised myself 30 days and although I don't demand perfection I will stretch myself. It can be done. I can go a weekend without getting too cray cray with the treatie treats. My weekends have already changed their look and feel. A lot still needs to happen. Progress, that's what I am making.
The other critical principle that I am trying to pay attention to, is my body cues. When it's hungry, i try to eat. I try to stop eating before I get completely full, and the most important, I try not to eat when I am not hungry. For so many years I ate even when I wasn't hungry. I am trying to be kind and nurturing to myself and really listen to what my body is saying and asking me to do. It's hard. But I am grateful for the challenge.
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