Getting Geared

I can feel that tightening happening again within my being. That tightening that needs to take place to find success in any aspect in life. I've been unwound for long enough. I can feel the desire and the motivation starting to build and gain momentum. Is it really going to happen this time? I threw away the rest of the red vines after dinner tonight. I chucked the peanut m&m's on to the furthest, most highest, most difficult spot to get to in my laundry room. Now the only thing for me to do is to get the fixings for that amazing salad that I keep talking about. And to not purchase any more treats at the store. I'm finding that peppermint patties are my downfall right now. I feel as if they are low-in fat, and low enough in calories to sneak into my diet routine. But in reality, it's not okay. Maybe when I'm in my maintaining state. But I'm not in my maintaining state. Even then, I think the sweet, minty bite needs to be held for the weekends. Am I the only person that has a downfall? Food that tempts them to the point of collapse?

What is your downfall if you have one? What are you going to do to overcome it?

What am I going to do?

Make sure that I don't go to the store hungry? That's a good one. I think I'll arm myself with a bottle of water too. Make sure I always have one in my purse to drink instead of reach for that darn peppermint pattie!!

Walking it Out

Today I went on a lovely walk with Melissa. The sun was shinning brightly and I was able to wear my killer sunglasses. As Melissa and I talked I mentioned how her upcoming birth was quickly approaching. She wanted me to repeat it cause time seemed to slow down for her. I told her it wasn't and I didn't want her to have that baby anytime soon. The plan was for me to lose 20lbs while she gained 20lbs. That's not happening. She has just about 2 months left and there is no way in H E double hockey sticks that's going to happen. But it did re-affirm my desire to lose this wretched weight.

Birthdays are now over with. Sickness, for now, is over with. And vacation for the rest of the year is over with. I have no other obstacles blocking my path to weight loss. Except myself.

Tomorrow I'm chucking all the sweets that are preventing me from having good days. I'm going to purchase the makings of a great salad and begin in earnest to change my lifestyle.

My anniversary is coming up on April 12th. I would love to lose 10lbs by then. I think 7 is more realistic.

Once again here are my goals up until April 12th.

1. Lose 7 lbs.
2. NO BUYING PEPPERMINT PADDIES AT THE STORE!!!!
3. Drink loads of water.
4. Continue to work out for 1-2 hours a day
5. Follow the Body for Life eating program to the T!!!
6. Gain control of my weekends!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now the trick is to keep my self motivated.

What do you do to keep motivated?

Home again, Home again

My vacation is over. I'm back to the day to day routine. I woke up and headed to the gym this morning. My favorite instructor substituted in my spin class this morning which was a pleasant surprise. I was conscious of my eating choices and still indulged in 3 pieces of licorice and a few bites of a garlic roll. Remind me again why nutrition is so powerful in weight loss? Why can't I exercise for 3 hours a day, be careful with what I eat and lose weight. Why do I have to be a nazi in the kitchen. I love being the bedtime nazi, the brush your teeth nazi, the get your homework done nazi, but the kitchen nazi I am NOT!!! Why can't nature balance itself out and just let me lose weight by exercising my guts out. It just doesn't seem fair!!! I guess life isn't fair. I guess I'll have to start being the kitchen nazi.

It just seems like I'm going in circles and not getting anywhere. I'm still not ready to give up. I'll keep going in circles until I find my groove.

This week I'm going back to the Body for Life eating program. It's simple, straight forward and easy to follow. No counting calories. Just portions. That's up my ally and something I can stick to for the rest of my life.

What are you doing to find weight loss success?

Of Vomit and Vacation

The month of February always throws me off! It's my birthday and I tend to indulge when it's my birthday. When that happens I have a hard time getting back on track. Then I have to struggle with 3 more birthdays and all the cake and ice cream associated with them. It's tough, to say the least.

On top of all of that I got a vicious stomach virus. Which in theory would help me to lose weight since I'm shooting liquid out my butt and mouth. Okay, that was a little crude, but the truth. When your sick you don't feel like eating leafy green veggies. So I opted for the higher caloric intake of simple crap foods. Did I mention that I suffer from emotional eating? Ya, I really do. The whole week I was feeling like crap, and eating crap I didn't make it to the gym. I gave a valiant effort on a Monday but the gurgling and churning in my stomach quickly sent me home and to the comfort of my bed.

Then comes the week before my period where I become bloated and my body holds on to all fluids and I end up gaining weight. At least I have my period to blame that on. I hate my bloated belly and those crappy feelings associated with the beautiful process called menstruation. At least I'm having a period and my i.u.d. hasn't failed me. This week I was back to the gym like a dedicated rat, every ding dang morning at 5am. If only I could get my eating to catch up to my exercising. I would be one lean, mean, sexy machine. ***SIGH***

It doesn't stop there. We are leaving for Vacation tomorrow. What's associated with road trips and vacation? That's right, junk food, and mindless eating. Oh the torture of it all to one who is trying to lose weight. I'm trying to have a good attitude and a brilliant strategy. No matter how hard I plan, and pump myself up I end up slipping and diving into the goodness of vacay food. Bless my struggling heart. And on top of that, I will be in full swing of my menstruation cycle, and what's associated with that? That's right, junk food and mindless eating. I see a pattern happening here! The twins would be so proud of me. ***SIGH***

I'm just going to let happen what happens. Gravity and Nature are pulling against me. I am going to give a valiant effort to eat right and make good and wise choices. Then, when I get home, I'm really going to bang my weight loss out. How many times do I need to tell myself that the strictness only has to happen for about 4 months. In 4 months I could have all my weight melted away and have a "normal" life. What ever "normal" is. ***SIGH***

See you in about a week.