Last week was an amazing week for me. I did really well during the days and didn't eat after dinner. I thought it was a monumental success. It's amazing to me how the smallest of Holidays, like Mother's Day, can kill it for me. Why is it that Holidays ruin all my motivation. I felt like I was back in the swing of things. And then I went to Sundance for lunch. I never go there so why not indulge. And besides, it was for Mother's Day. Saturdays are usually hard for me, but I actually practiced some restraint. And then Sunday came with it's huge symphany bar from church, dinner and dessert at my Mom's and a second dessert at the in-laws! WHAT THE HECK!! I thought I could stop on Monday. But the in-laws gave me these irristable white chocolate covered craisins. Ya, they were gone in a day. Since I munched on sweets all day I couldn't help myself and delved into a bag of chocolate chips. WHAT THE HECK!!!
I'm so mad at myself. What am I doing? This is NOT how I want my life to be lived. Yes, I think that holidays should be celebrated and I think it's okay to do it with food. But WHAT THE HECK!! Why can't I stop eating after just dessert. What is it in that process that clicks something in my brain to begin eating like that?
It must stop.
I'm going to start documenting my days again. So my 100 days begins again. CRAP!! Hopefully it begins with today.
Breakfast(300):
2 banana muffins
1/2 cup shake
The rest of the day was a crap shot. I forget how maddening it is to help with Dance recitals. Dinner always gets blown off and I'm running here, there, everywhere. It's no fun. So my day was crap. I'm hoping for a better more organized day tomorrow.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Hungery Like a Lion
breakfast(310):
tortilla scramber
tortilla
2 eggs
2 tbl cheese
snack(200):
yogurt with granola
lunch(550):
small ham and turkey sandwich
fruit salad
veggies
Parfait
snack(320):
2 slices whole wheat bread
pbj
dinner(240):
apple
2 cheese sticks
baggie full of carrots and celery
snack(200):
yogurt with granola
grand total: 1620
That's more calories then I wanted to consume today. Especially since I'm not working out as much as I have in the past. I squeezed in another walk during Hannah's soccer game. I discovered the Spanish Fork River Walkway. It was beautiful. Another fun place I'll be taking my kids this summer.
It's been rough this evening. Brent has a massive headache so I sit in the basement watching Biggest Loser, and blogging to help keep my hands and mind busy while I wait to pick up Jaren from his ball game. There is no way I'm sitting outside. It's way too butt freezing cold.
I am proud of myself for getting through book club this afternoon. I had just one sandwich, one scoop of fruit salad and a bunch of veggies. When I went back for seconds for Grace, I didn't even touch them. I did allow myself some parfait. Because that is what a healthy person can do. I didn't have seconds but just enjoyed what was given to me.
I didn't want to eat too much for dinner or eat top ramen, which is what everyone else is having. So I brought an apple, cheese sticks, and bag of veggies. I ate them almost all when I finally sat down after my walk. But when I got home I was so hungry, so I ate some yogurt and granola. I really was sooo hungry. I couldn't go to be with that kind of hunger. But now I'm a little upset for the calories that I consumed today. It's still 6oo+ calories less then what I was consuming.
I didn't think I was focused on weight loss. The way I'm writing, it sure seems like that. I want so badly to be healthy, to be fit, to be happy. You know, I'm glad my head is back into the game. I'm relieved that I want this so badly that I've found my focus again. It's awesome.
I am going to count today as another good day. Good Day #4. I did display some good self-discipline. It was a good day. Just 96 more to go!
tortilla scramber
tortilla
2 eggs
2 tbl cheese
snack(200):
yogurt with granola
lunch(550):
small ham and turkey sandwich
fruit salad
veggies
Parfait
snack(320):
2 slices whole wheat bread
pbj
dinner(240):
apple
2 cheese sticks
baggie full of carrots and celery
snack(200):
yogurt with granola
grand total: 1620
That's more calories then I wanted to consume today. Especially since I'm not working out as much as I have in the past. I squeezed in another walk during Hannah's soccer game. I discovered the Spanish Fork River Walkway. It was beautiful. Another fun place I'll be taking my kids this summer.
It's been rough this evening. Brent has a massive headache so I sit in the basement watching Biggest Loser, and blogging to help keep my hands and mind busy while I wait to pick up Jaren from his ball game. There is no way I'm sitting outside. It's way too butt freezing cold.
I am proud of myself for getting through book club this afternoon. I had just one sandwich, one scoop of fruit salad and a bunch of veggies. When I went back for seconds for Grace, I didn't even touch them. I did allow myself some parfait. Because that is what a healthy person can do. I didn't have seconds but just enjoyed what was given to me.
I didn't want to eat too much for dinner or eat top ramen, which is what everyone else is having. So I brought an apple, cheese sticks, and bag of veggies. I ate them almost all when I finally sat down after my walk. But when I got home I was so hungry, so I ate some yogurt and granola. I really was sooo hungry. I couldn't go to be with that kind of hunger. But now I'm a little upset for the calories that I consumed today. It's still 6oo+ calories less then what I was consuming.
I didn't think I was focused on weight loss. The way I'm writing, it sure seems like that. I want so badly to be healthy, to be fit, to be happy. You know, I'm glad my head is back into the game. I'm relieved that I want this so badly that I've found my focus again. It's awesome.
I am going to count today as another good day. Good Day #4. I did display some good self-discipline. It was a good day. Just 96 more to go!
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Fitting in a walk
Another successful day. Despite another busy day, I managed to stay pretty clean in my eating. I still need to add more veggies to my lunch and dinner. Eating veggies is KEY to my success in becoming healthy.
I didn't wake up and do p90x with Brent this morning. Cause he had to leave at 5am. I just stayed in bed and slept. I wasn't sure when I was going to get in my walk. The situation presented itself late in the evening. I walked around the block of the junior high while Isabel and Annika played their softball game. I made it around that ginormous block 3 times. I had to have gone at least 2 miles. I didn't slow my pace. I almost wanted to jog. I probably would have if it wasn't for the fact that I was wearing jeans.
I have no desire to run. But walking, that's a different story. It's so therapudic to me. I'm trying to approach my workouts differently. I'm going to try and stay in the fat burning zone which requires a lower heart rate instead of killing myself in an anaerobic state.
As I passed the Junior High's outdoor track with it's spacious field in the middle, a thought popped into my head. I'm going to bring the kids here in the summer. While I rotate walking a lap with running a lap, the kids can play. They can bring their bats and balls, or a soccer ball and kick it around. A brilliant idea. I am going to follow through with this.
I can't believe that I've had 3 good days in a row. Today I passed up ice cream, I bought myself a calorie free diet coke instead. Jaren really wanted fries so I relented and bought him some. I had just 3. He brought me the remainder of the fries which I quickly place in the garbage can.
3 good days down. Just 97 more to go.
breakfast(450):
2 slices whole wheat french toast(200)
2 tsp syrup(40)
4 tbl yogurt(40)
Protien shake with water(170)
whoa, I wont be doing that for breakfast again!!!
snack:
3 bited mac-n-cheese(60)
yogurt and granola(150)
lunch:
bq chicken pizza(350)
carrots
snack:
protien bar
dinner:
taco soup(350)
2tbl cheese(60)
1tbl sour cream(60)
total: 1480
I didn't wake up and do p90x with Brent this morning. Cause he had to leave at 5am. I just stayed in bed and slept. I wasn't sure when I was going to get in my walk. The situation presented itself late in the evening. I walked around the block of the junior high while Isabel and Annika played their softball game. I made it around that ginormous block 3 times. I had to have gone at least 2 miles. I didn't slow my pace. I almost wanted to jog. I probably would have if it wasn't for the fact that I was wearing jeans.
I have no desire to run. But walking, that's a different story. It's so therapudic to me. I'm trying to approach my workouts differently. I'm going to try and stay in the fat burning zone which requires a lower heart rate instead of killing myself in an anaerobic state.
As I passed the Junior High's outdoor track with it's spacious field in the middle, a thought popped into my head. I'm going to bring the kids here in the summer. While I rotate walking a lap with running a lap, the kids can play. They can bring their bats and balls, or a soccer ball and kick it around. A brilliant idea. I am going to follow through with this.
I can't believe that I've had 3 good days in a row. Today I passed up ice cream, I bought myself a calorie free diet coke instead. Jaren really wanted fries so I relented and bought him some. I had just 3. He brought me the remainder of the fries which I quickly place in the garbage can.
3 good days down. Just 97 more to go.
breakfast(450):
2 slices whole wheat french toast(200)
2 tsp syrup(40)
4 tbl yogurt(40)
Protien shake with water(170)
whoa, I wont be doing that for breakfast again!!!
snack:
3 bited mac-n-cheese(60)
yogurt and granola(150)
lunch:
bq chicken pizza(350)
carrots
snack:
protien bar
dinner:
taco soup(350)
2tbl cheese(60)
1tbl sour cream(60)
total: 1480
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Good Day 2
I found success on Tuesday. No way!! It was going to be tough. I passed up a doughnut, a white chocolate dove candy, a left over doughnut, frozen yogurt, and opening up a bag of chocolate chips for something sweet after dinner. Big old pat on the back for me!!! And it wasn't hard! I love how putting your mind to something really does have power. Mind over body.
I just remember that I need to keep it up. My pantry is stalked up and so is my fridge with lots of veggies and fruit. There are no excuses!! NONE!!!
It's going to be a hard week for me this week too. My husband is working late every single night. Which means I get to do all the evenings by myself and all the sports by myself. That has always been an added stress. But this is where attitude comes into play. I'm not looking at it as a burden. But a chance to get out and spend some time away from the house. I'm also going to go for a walk with Grace while the girls are at their game.
I still need to get in some exercise. I can't wait to get out and go on a walk. I spent all day in and out of stores. Again, not once did I buy a candy bar, treat or sweet!! That is HUGE for me. Most of the time I'll look at that york peppermint patty and think to myself, "it's a reward. there aren't too many calories in that!". But there are. And I'm not rewarding myself. I'm just sabotaging myself.
I indulged in a diet coke at lunch again. That is my weakness. It's what's getting me through. Ya, for a whole 2 days. But that 2 good days down. Just 98 more to go!
breakfast:(170)
protien bar(morning on the run)
lunch:(400)
asian salad
diet coke
snack:
yogurt with home meade granola(200)
I was still hungry so I grabbed a slice of whole wheat bread with pbj(200)
dinner:
bbq chicken pizza on a super thin whole wheat dealy thing(300)
sauted spinach(30)
grand total: 1300
I'm trying to think if there was anything else I ate today?
carrots and cucumbers, but calorie wise, i don't think they count!
I just remember that I need to keep it up. My pantry is stalked up and so is my fridge with lots of veggies and fruit. There are no excuses!! NONE!!!
It's going to be a hard week for me this week too. My husband is working late every single night. Which means I get to do all the evenings by myself and all the sports by myself. That has always been an added stress. But this is where attitude comes into play. I'm not looking at it as a burden. But a chance to get out and spend some time away from the house. I'm also going to go for a walk with Grace while the girls are at their game.
I still need to get in some exercise. I can't wait to get out and go on a walk. I spent all day in and out of stores. Again, not once did I buy a candy bar, treat or sweet!! That is HUGE for me. Most of the time I'll look at that york peppermint patty and think to myself, "it's a reward. there aren't too many calories in that!". But there are. And I'm not rewarding myself. I'm just sabotaging myself.
I indulged in a diet coke at lunch again. That is my weakness. It's what's getting me through. Ya, for a whole 2 days. But that 2 good days down. Just 98 more to go!
breakfast:(170)
protien bar(morning on the run)
lunch:(400)
asian salad
diet coke
snack:
yogurt with home meade granola(200)
I was still hungry so I grabbed a slice of whole wheat bread with pbj(200)
dinner:
bbq chicken pizza on a super thin whole wheat dealy thing(300)
sauted spinach(30)
grand total: 1300
I'm trying to think if there was anything else I ate today?
carrots and cucumbers, but calorie wise, i don't think they count!
Monday, May 3, 2010
Good Day
I'm finding it hard to stick to my pre-planned menu. I'm doing my best. At least I'm writing every thing down and keeping track. Which is something I didn't want to do again. But it really really really helps me to eat careful during the day.
I found a website that will calculate how many calories you need to eat to lose just 1lb a week. I was shocked to find out how many calories it was taking for me to keep at my current weight and how many I could still eat to lose. I think it was something ridiculous like 1800 calories. I do know that in the past I haven't eaten as much as I should. That is just as detremental as over eating.
Monday was a great day. I usually have great days on Mondays. It's Tuesday-Saturday that I struggle.
Monday
breakfast(390):
1 muffin(50)(I just couldn't help myself)
2 scrambled eggs(150)/1 tsp cheese(30)/ salsa(30)
1/2 cup cream of wheat(100)/ 2 tsp sugar(30)
snack(292):
chocolate protien shake(217)
1.5 muffins(75)
lunch(400):
Chicken Salad Sandwich
Muffin(50)
Snack: cottage cheese and manderin oranges(200)
I found a website that will calculate how many calories you need to eat to lose just 1lb a week. I was shocked to find out how many calories it was taking for me to keep at my current weight and how many I could still eat to lose. I think it was something ridiculous like 1800 calories. I do know that in the past I haven't eaten as much as I should. That is just as detremental as over eating.
Monday was a great day. I usually have great days on Mondays. It's Tuesday-Saturday that I struggle.
Monday
breakfast(390):
1 muffin(50)(I just couldn't help myself)
2 scrambled eggs(150)/1 tsp cheese(30)/ salsa(30)
1/2 cup cream of wheat(100)/ 2 tsp sugar(30)
snack(292):
chocolate protien shake(217)
1.5 muffins(75)
lunch(400):
Chicken Salad Sandwich
Muffin(50)
Snack: cottage cheese and manderin oranges(200)
Dinner:open face pulled pork sanwich(210)
total: 1490
Sunday, May 2, 2010
The Plan
As I mentioned before I feel strongly that you have to have a plan to be successful. When ever I've followed a plan in the past I've found success. This time is no different. My plan is to follow Body for Life while watching the calories. I don't really enjoy counting calories. So to make things a little easier for me, I'm going to eat the same thing for Breakfast, Lunch and my two snacks. I will go bonkers if I have to count different calories every single day. I think this is one of the reasons I quit and run out of steam. So if I figure out my calories for an entire week with just 4 meals, that's easy. I didnt include dinner cause that does change every night. For those of you who aren't familiar with the Body for Life Eating Program, it's simple. At every meal you eat a portion of protien with a portion of carb. At lunch and dinner you eat a portion of veggies as well.I'm going to try and not eat any carbs at dinner. In my "old"age, carbs go straight to my gut, which is my problem area. Instead of carbs I'm going to eat a huge salad! I'm not going to eat anything after dinner. If I get hungry I'm going to go for an orange or an apple. I might pair that with some cottage cheese, since protien will fill me up. In addition to that, I'm going to try the ice water.
My meal plan for Week 1(geez, how many week one's have been featured on this blog? 1 to many!)
Breakfast(245):
Tortilla Scrambler
1 whole wheat tortilla 100
1 egg, 2 egg whites 135
2 tablespoons salsa 10
Snack (263):
Chocolate Protien Shake
1 Cup Milk 110
1 scoop chocolate protien powder 120
1/2 banana 66
Lunch (410):
Chicken Salad on Whole Wheat
1 chicken breast 100
diced green onion 10
diced bell pepper 10
grape halves 30
1 tbsp light mayo 30
2 tbsp light sour cream 40
lettuce
cucumber
2 slices home made whole wheat bread 160
Steamed Broccoli 30
Snack (150):
Cottage Cheese and Manderin Oranges
I can't let my life get out of control. Besides, what I was doing in the beginning of this year was working. I'm going to refocus my energies and get going again. Notice, no sweets in the mix there? That is going to be the hardest part of all of this. As I've metioned before. I just can't take part in sweets anymore. My body just can't take it.
My meal plan for Week 1(geez, how many week one's have been featured on this blog? 1 to many!)
Breakfast(245):
Tortilla Scrambler
1 whole wheat tortilla 100
1 egg, 2 egg whites 135
2 tablespoons salsa 10
Snack (263):
Chocolate Protien Shake
1 Cup Milk 110
1 scoop chocolate protien powder 120
1/2 banana 66
Lunch (410):
Chicken Salad on Whole Wheat
1 chicken breast 100
diced green onion 10
diced bell pepper 10
grape halves 30
1 tbsp light mayo 30
2 tbsp light sour cream 40
lettuce
cucumber
2 slices home made whole wheat bread 160
Steamed Broccoli 30
Snack (150):
Cottage Cheese and Manderin Oranges
I can't let my life get out of control. Besides, what I was doing in the beginning of this year was working. I'm going to refocus my energies and get going again. Notice, no sweets in the mix there? That is going to be the hardest part of all of this. As I've metioned before. I just can't take part in sweets anymore. My body just can't take it.
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