The past several weeks I have been feeling pretty crappy. I think I've mentioned this before. Today I decided to do something about it. Actually, I've been working up to it all weekend. I realized that as I get older my body can no longer tolerate some foods that it use to in my "younger" years. Not that I am getting "that" old, still. The bad habits that I had and continue to struggle with are once again rearing their ugly heads. Something needed to be done. So I pulled out one of my many attempts at weight loss, a book titled 6 Day Body Make Over. Yes, I actually did this for 6 days several years ago. But I hated it. It was miserable. And as I read through the nutrition of it I was quickly reminded why I hated it so much. But I need a kick in the pants, I need to prove to myself once again that I am strong enough to stick to something. Besides, I need a good cleanse. I don't feel as badly today as I have in the past few weeks. There aren't any carbs in this diet and I felt it right about 3pm, my energy was ca-put. I caved slightly and had a slice of whole wheat bread with low-cal peanut butter. I felt rejuvenated. I also need to remind myself how empowering it feels to actually control my food, and not have food control me.
I thought a lot about what has been going on in my life and what could possibly be thrusting me back into my bad habits. Well, there is something, and I thought maybe it wasn't causing a problem. But it has been stressful, and when I'm stressed I turn to food. Now that I recognize this, I will be making better choices.
I DID NOT enjoy my sauted zucchini and egg whites that I had for breakfast. I pretty much had to gag those down. But, it needs to be done. I also gagged down my chicken breast that was on the menu for lunch. I ditched the zucchini that I was suppose to have and had an apple instead. It really helps if you have on hand the items that you are going to eat. This is just an exercise in self control. To remind myself that nutrition and good health is a fight for me.
I caught a glimse of Oprah today and it was about people who were morbidly obese. Watching those people who are between 400-800lbs is heart breaking. It's a little upsetting to me when I am told that I am obese. Yes, I am overweight, but I am NOT obese. I don't care what the "specialist" say. Listening to those people talk about their addictions to food was an eye-opener. I have called myself an addict before, and I believe myself to be an addict. But nothing like what i saw on television today. I also realized that if I don't fight every day of my life for my health, I could turn out like them. Don't shake your head "no", anything is possible. But I refuse to allow that to happen. I refuse to let myself go. Hence my torturous week of eating nothing but egg whites, chicken breast, zucchini and short grain brown rice. All without salt. Which I can't do. I have to have some salt.
First day wasn't perfect, according to the 6 day Body Makeover. But as far as a regular making good choices day, it was great.
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Oh honey- are you developing food intolerances? I have found that there are more foods now that my body reacts badly to than ever before. I'll spare you the details but I definitely have a mental list of foods, that no matter how good they taste, I just don't want to pay the price for eating them. Luckily a piece of good chocolate cake and a glass of milk hasn't made it on that list yet. Oh wait-we are supposed to be eating healthy right? Then the oh-so- delicious choco-PB-banana protein shake isn't on the list- I still am so glad you showed me how to make that!
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