I am the kind of person that likes instant gratification. Another reason why I think weight loss has been so hard for me. If I don't see results right away I say to my self, "what's the use, might as well go back to my old ways this obviously isn't working for me" I really need to kick this attitude. Weight loss is one of the hardest things for people in general to do. It's up there with quiting smoking and drug re-hab. So of course this is going to take some time, some major effort, and me enduring to the end.
This same attitude is getting in the way of my "getting-to-know-who-I-am" process injunction with the Lord. I know what I am suppose to do and I have received several promptings on the direction I should take. But it still seems so daunting, and overwhelming. I feel like the research and studying that I am doing is leading me no where. Like the spiritual gifts, all the scriptures that I've read already list the SAME spiritual gifts. And there's not too many articles on the subject either. And the one prompting that keeps coming to me is pray about it. Everything that I need help with is encircled around prayer. The one thing that I have the least amount of faith in. So I guess I get on my knees morning, noon, and night and hope that I am sensitive enough to the spirit to heed the promptings that will answer my questions and concerns. Again, this is not instant gratification. The Lord answers in his own due time. I guess there are a lot of lessons that are to be learned through this journey.
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Prayer is so important.
That was why I appreciate Elder Bednar's talk on this topic.
This is actually my struggle right now, and since I always feel like Elder Bedar is the one speaker who speaks directly to me...I take it as a sign that the Lord meant his talk especially for me.
Keep reading, both the Ensign and your scriptures...and the prayer will come.
I am working on it too, so let's keep encouraing each other.
I will keep going. I realize that it's so important not to give up.
So, Denise, do you read the Ensign from cover to cover? Do you find that to be a source of inspiration?
Yes. Cover to Cover.
It's my goal.
I consider it my scritpure study during the days that I read.
I also journal as I read so that as impressions come to me, I can write them down.
I will write down whatever struck me, and then I will write down how I feel about it or how it motivates me, or makes me feel guilty. Whatever it is.
And I use what I have read to make goals.
I do this especially with the conference issue. It takes me several weeks to read because I go through each talk, one by one, writing down my impressions and setting goals.
I have only been doing this for a year or so now, but it has changed me! I know SO MUCH that heavenly father is aware of me as he sends words of inspiration right into my home every month.
How could I not gain a better testimony of his love, and thus my own divine heritage?
Loving myself and caring about me put a totally different spin on why I chose to eat right or exercise.
Also, understand that my body is a gift from God (you were looking for gifts right?). How could I treat a gift from God so poorly?
Am I making sense?
Yes, you are making complete sense. My patriarchal blessing actually talks about my body and how I should take care of it and not put anything into that would cause it harm. Pretty specific. I should know that my body is a gift, but I never really considered it to be one. Thank you so much for pointing that out to me.
I will start reading the Ensign more earnestly. I really need to heed the spirit and I tend to be more sensitive to the spirit when I do read the Ensign.
Thanks again for your great insight. Where have you been all my life?
I really liked how you mentioned worrying and how it is irreverent and I need to turn my worrying over to the Lord. Loved that. This is something that I have NEVER thought about doing.
It's funny, because believe that all things happen for a reason, but more than that, they happen WHEN the Lord means for them to happen, and not before.
A lot of the knowledge that I am now processing, I have had for a long time.
A lot of the things that I am now doing, I have been aware of for a long time.
But I wasn't ready until recently to start my journey, that everything really came together.
And many of the things that I have put off doing, and the things that I have put off reading, have so much MORE meaning for me NOW.
And I am actually grateful that it didn't happen before now, because I wasn't ready.
So, my being able to help you is just one more step in my process, and one more testament to me that Heavenly Father is aware of us and helps us...and allows us to help each other.
I have actually stalled a little in my journey, and I am grateful for your journey, becuase it is helping me back on mine.
I totally agree with you. I think the Lord reveals mysteries to us when when we are ready. We may or may not know when that time is.
Sometimes I wonder though, why it takes us so long. If I could have just figured this stuff out earlier, I could have accomplished so much by now.
As I think about it, I appreciate this knowledge so much more because of my past failures. It's amazing how we grow like that.
I'm glad I am helping you in some way. I feel like I am taking, taking, taking. I hope I can give back to you what you have given me.
Wow! Just don't call me when you guys are on the General Relief Society Presidency!
Seriously- reading your thoughts is like a mini Women's Conference. My life is crazy right now - so I'm glad for the little bit of serenity I get when reading your inspirations! Thanks!
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