Milk and Muscle

This whole week I have been so discourage by my progress. I started exercising which is so GREAT!!! I love exercising. But I when I stepped on the scale at home I had gained back 3 lbs. Blah, that is so frustrating. I have stuck to the eating almost to the T. I knew for sure when I stepped on the scale today that I was going to gain at least 2lbs. Between muscle gain from exercising and extra milk in my breasteses (Grace was suppose to eat in 15 minutes) it was a for sure thing!!! Mandy weighed before me and she totally took her pants off!!! I thought she was crazy!!! But I could hear her excitement. I thought to myself, " I'm going to need all the help I can get. I'm dropping my drawers." Mandy is so great. She never tells me how much she's lost until after I weigh in. But I knew from her reaction that she had a good week.
I stepped into the room and I could feel the weight of my disappointment on my shoulders. That in itself could have weighed 5 lbs. You have no idea my DELIGHT when I stepped on the scale and waited for the number to stop (If you've ever watched The Biggest Loser and they step on that ridiculously large scale and the number goes up and down, up and down and it feels like FOREVER for it to come to a stop, this is how it felt). When it finally stopped, I had lost 2.2 lbs!!!! YEAH FOR ME!!!!!!! When I got back to the waiting room I did a "raise your hands if your Sure" jump!!! I was so excited about 2.2 lbs. I feel so great about myself. All my hard work is paying off!!! YIPEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It feels so good to finally have that sticking scale register more then a measley 1.and whatever lbs. Yes, I know a loss is a loss. But dang, this feels good!!!!
Big pat on my back, I deserve it.

On a spiritual note.

I started putting myself first by studying my scriptures, before I do anything else. You know how I am an instant gratification kind of girl. Well, this brought instant results in how my days went and how I felt about myself. And maybe it's just a placebo kind of an effect. But I like to give the praise to H.F. He knows I am trying and I KNOW he is blessing me for my honest efforts. I wrote in my journal after my last post and realized that if I do this, and put the Lord first I AM putting myself first. All my other relationships and concerns will fall into place. My relationship with myself, my Husband and my children have been better. The husband part still needs some work. But I feel as if I continue to change for the better, he will recognize this and will begin to change along with me. Nothing is more attractive then a confident, loving Woman. And that is what I am ultimately striving for, Confidence and unconditional Love for myself and my family.